There are times when insecurity seeps in and self-doubt starts to grow, yet you know that’s not where you are to stay. Pretty soon, you feel a certain way, whether it be an old nature you’re growing past or moving into a new and unfamiliar space in life, and the “old you” is trying to keep you in that familiar territory. Enter growth, goodbye former way of being.
Out of all the struggles I’ve been in throughout my life, this is an area I’ve been navigating lately.
Feelings of defeat haunt insecurities I’m growing past, and self-doubt sets in, leaving me weak. I often get reminded to ask Jesus to show me how to do life differently than I had previously. Most of the time, I feel a gut-check or a tug from within; then surrender happens, but not immediately.
In the past, I’ve asked, “Was that You, Jesus? Or is that my will interjecting? I’m feeling…weak and unsure. As I sit and debate choices regarding a situation or two; asking more questions…. or “am I looking at this correctly? If I am, why do I feel funny about it?”
Enter growth
A new fallback is asking, “which choice is right?” Which then leads to the contemplation of which brings the most peace?
Beware, the way of the most peace may lead to a tough road. This is when it’s good to talk it out with someone. Often times it’s someone safe like a friend, coach, or therapist, depending on the situation. What’s even better is when that person helps you navigate by using God’s word.
Over time, that timidness changes. Circling back to God’s Word, I am reminded….”In my weakness, it is You who makes me strong.” Once that can be embraced, it can be said just as 2 Corinthians 12:10 states, “…for when I am weak, I am strong.”
That uncomfortable feeling is likely to be growth, which can be scary.
If this is you, my friend, keep growing! Leaning into that space…it may get dicey, but God’s got you.
Admittingly, to this day, I may not do whatever “it” how I expected, although I’m learning to be more forgiving of myself and look at it from a different perspective. After all, there are always more questions to ask.
It’s because of the Holy Spirit
He speaks in a way that could only come from Him. There’s a peace there; you know it when it comes.
At the prompting of my weakness, my heart races, my breath shallows, and oftentimes I’d freeze…Yep, that’s my anxiety on the rise again. Truly, I know there’s nothing to be scared of, yet part of me was saying otherwise…not gonna deny that.
This is when another reminder comes in…those times of insecurity and self-doubt are present, is where the evil one has crept in where he is not welcome. By acknowledging that alone, it can be addressed, and eviction can take place.
That certain situation could be a minor one or a major one; either way, following the prompts of that gut-checks, are important & listening to Jesus is key.
When a blanket of grace and peace is upon you, may you be comforted once again that you are safe to feel, safe to be, and safe to grow in your faith & purpose. The uncomfortability won’t last once peace takes over. Enter growth!
Stay in God’s word, my friend!
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